Bludhaven

Back and breathing...

2007-05-29T08:57:00.000+08:00

woah!! my blog here was so dead...ok now its updated...

i am totally not ok...i woke at 6 in the morning with problems breathing...i was in shock...thought i was having an asthma attack....i kept trying to breathe normally...it was as if every breath i took was cut short.....so i stopped and thought.....then i remembered watching a movie where this girl had an asthma attack and her inhaler(not sure of the spelling) ran out....so this guy taking care of her(well actually this guy kidnapped her for ransom) gave her coffee....and the girl was fine...after that i rushed to the kitchen and made coffee.....IT WORKS!!! it totally works....coffee can totally save lives.....well that's all i have to post..for now..

p.s. i so don't want to even think about my love life...

Don't want to care what happens

2007-01-21T14:35:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 10 in the morning. Went online and got bored. I haven't eaten yet. After that i turned the computer off. Took a shower. Did my homework(surprise). But i haven't completed my mother tongue homework. Just half way. Later my mum said we're going out. To buy a TV for my eldest brother's room. Then maybe i'll ask him if i can move the xbox from the living room to his room. But probably he'll say no.

Well looks like its going to be another boring,lonesome day. Maybe later at night i'll post another entry. Maybe.

P.S. guess i'll become the joke..

Reincarnation

2007-01-20T15:50:00.000+08:00

Ok i admit my blog was dead. Doesn't even matter because nobody read this blog. Lately my life has made a turn to a downhill street. Hope it ends. The new year, everyone are more serious nowadays. Sometimes i think too serious. I mean i know that i'm sitting for the 'N' levels this year but, don't have to be so serious right?? All i have to do is buck up on my weak subjects to get a pass, and do well on my strong subjects(subjects which i think i can do well in).

I figured that its never going to end. Now the 'N' levels then the 'O' levels(cross my heart and hope to die i will go through both). After that graduate and go to polytechnic hopefully. There's still going to be tests and exams right?? I know i can't fool around but, can't i relax??

Bad news is i've already fallen behind on my studies(personal reasons). Eventhough i haven't been absent from school. Everything is changing while i'm still stuck in the past. I don't even care about that. Why step up when you can't keep up??Right??

And so i end this entry hoping things will mend.(at least i get ice powers or something like that)

love attraction....

2006-11-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

ouhk on this entry i'm going to blab about love.....yes love,love,love,love,love,love.....this topic has been in my mind so long that its creating cob-webs.....the thing about guys trying to get girls is that......guys either wanna feel how its like to be loved or they want someone to be on their side......is it the same with girls???tag and tell me........ok when in the relationship....i don't really get why there must be arguements on small matters.....isn't it enough just to love each other???why must there be arguements???ok to those couples out there who is curious why both of you always argue with each other.....why argue??you two do love each other right??if you do both of you would think its foolish to argue.....the important thing is that you both love each other that's all....even if you both stumbled upon an arguement.....you should surrender......"mengalah" as they say in malay.....so i guess that's about it with this entry.....

p.s. couples if you're arguing.....stop and think about how and why did you fall in love in the first place.....WORLD PEACE!!

dreams,thoughts,fantasies....

2006-11-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

i have a large good imagination....ever since i was a kid i could imagine being like those superheroes on the telly...that's how i build an interest to superheroism....i think imagining is a hobby i do everyday...at school,outside,at home...my imagination always runs wild.....recently i imagined being married,having a wife,holding on to a degree of something and owning a house.....awesome......

imagination reviews:getting married,my band performing infront of an audience,doing romantic stuffs,having super powers and way more......

there's just no limit to imagining......i think imagination runs dreams too.....once i dreamt falling from the top of a building,waterfall.....the feeling is breath-taking but not scary at all.....feeling tha taste of freedom.....

well that's all for this entry....
thanks to anyone who reads this bloody blog.....

p.s. i'm trying to figure out when that special day is....

OK day

2006-11-25T13:50:00.000+08:00

wow...my mum is nice....she said if i lend her $30 she'll give me back double the amount tomorrow....thanks mum!And she also said that maybe she'll buy me this little drum kit.....it cost around $300......its has pads and stuff.....hey i know its not a real drum but its ok to have.....

omg.....including last night.....i've fallen asleep before 4 o'clock three times or more.....the weird thing is...i always wake up 2 hours later.....freaky....i would feel upset about it and all but its no big deal.....but kinda weird.....only 2 hours of sleep.....later my mum is going to a garden in a kampung somewhere....i rather stay at home with eyes on the computer screen....i think i'll go act like a rockstar now.....i'm just acting...

peace out and rock on fellow readers!!!

P.S. i don't mind other people following me by ending their blog entries with 'p.s.'...its not like i invented it......use it freely!

taadaa!!

2006-11-23T19:17:00.000+08:00

i just updated this blog...its really kinda boring though...its not much seen by people....
my plans for the holidays so far has been lazing at home doing nothing but going online.....go to sleep at 3-5 in the morning and wake up at noon....but once i woke up at 7....totally energized...weird...i slept for like only an hour....freaky....i don't go out much too.....i wanna go out with friends...but they usually have other plans.....i mean what's the point of going out if you don't know where to go,with who and what you wanna do.....i don't see my friends alot....sigh....

on the other hand...wanna know what i do staying up until 3- 5 sumtimes 6 in the morning??well you can't...that's for me to know and you to find out...those who know..keep it on the low down....

well that's it i guess......haha...i usually end my entries with p.s. .....and it looks like some people are starting to do the same thing.....

p.s. i want to chase that fantasy,together....

Awws

2006-11-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

ok ok..i know i haven't been updating so here it goes....

lately i've been getting my hopes high..i'm believeing in fate and stuff...not to mention love...
oh yeah i recorded my own song...not much but i'm proud of it...i just used a mic and my computer...wish i could like add drums though....ok now movie review....The Covenant....really cool.....the show is about the descendants(not sure about the spelling) of the 1st 5 families who started witchcraft.....The Sons Of Ipswich.....they all get powers and do hell of stuff.....then one of them get power hungry and all,blablabla.....want to know more?GO SEE THE MOVIE!!!...

i'm starting to see things clearer now....erm....can't explain much about it because i don't exactly know how....

well that's it i guess..

p.s. your awws melt me!

Acceptence....

2006-11-03T19:23:00.000+08:00

Harlow!!!!

I'm estatic.I don't really know what the word means.But nevermind.I think i've accepted the fact that some dreams can never come true.And its possible i'm estatic because i've lost my insanity.Well....so be it.My friend says i'm like this because i'm hiding something.Maybe i am.But i don't know what i'm hiding.She said the last time she acted like this was because she was hiding a broken heart.Am i heart broken?Its possible.But i'm not sure.I'm not sure of anything nowadays.But i'm sure that i want to eat tacos or buritos.Yummy!Too bad taco bell don't deliveries.Right now i'm so so so so so so so damn bored.I really wanna go out but where?With who?

ouhk that's all for now...
P.S. Dialled...No Answer

wish everbody else is happy...

2006-10-23T20:54:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya.....

i hope everyone out there is happy..........
besides the fact that i'm kinda not....
i actually feel down....
but who cares anyway.....

i can't imagine myself feeling better......
i think i'm gonna stay this way......
even tomorrow.......
enough of me feeling down....
it can't be help.....

so best wishes to everyone....

p.s. still dialing for disclosure....

Cast Away....

2006-10-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

I've broken down.
I realised that i want to be alone.
Reason because i don't want to be alone.
Confusing isn't it?

I want a friend.
But i can't have them all.

To anybody that is angry with me,
i say sorry for whatever reason.
To anybody that doesn't care about me,
i don't blame anybody.
To anybody who think i hate them,
think about all that i've done then decide if you hate me or not.

I bit farewell for a period of time.
I've got to take care of what's in my mind.
But i leave readers with a question.....

A person says something to another,
the person is right...
But why if the other person says the same thing to that person,
that other person is wrong?

figure it out....who is wrong?who is right?

All Cards On The Table....

2006-10-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

ok no more hiding.....
i feel like shit....
i hate these thoughts i'm having......
i can't decide on things.....
i have no appetite to eat......
even after i break my fast.....
too much stuff going on in my mind.....
why the hell do i think too much?
i even feel like two different person sometimes....
if somebody ask me for advise.....
i would know what to say.....
but when i'm in trouble......
i can't advise myself.....
i feel so stupid.....
my friend said i have to think things through.....
but the more i think the more i feel lost....
totally..........

lost,definitely broken

2006-10-11T12:51:00.000+08:00

the exams are over.....
yippee...jump for joy...
whatever...

i feel so....
can't find a word to say.....
can't explain it.....
i just feel so down....
don't know what to do....

i have strong feelings....
but what's the point of having them if i can't use them.....

that's all.....till' next time

missing london

2006-10-08T01:00:00.000+08:00

i miss the old times.....

happy together......

me and me frens used to have a hangout....
we'd go there and just joke around.....
talked bout stuffs.....
and stuffs happened there....
felt like it last forever.......
too bad it all ended......
some things changed.....
i changed......

i wish things would be back to how they were....

too bad i don't have a genie or fairly godparent.....

oh well......

guess i'll just dwell in the past......

Lazing the day away....

2006-09-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

omg......

the exams are just around the corner.....
and i still haven't start revising.......

damn....

i really,really,really don't want to be held back....

if i continue being so lazy.....
i am sure to be held back......

have to buck up.....
have to get my head in the books......
but everytime time i try to do that...
i either fall asleep......
or get side tracked....

have to change my attitude on studying.......

Dead

2006-09-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

major boredom alert!!

ouhk what the heck did i do today?
hmm let's see.....

i ate....
i watched tv....
i played my uncle's guitar....
i burned a cd....
which is what i'm listening to right now....
i thought of stuffs....
stuffs that made me kinda sad...
made me pressure myself...
made me realise...
that i have to let myself go...

ouhk....
cut the crap now.....
this weekend is starting to look boring....
i wish that things aren't like this....
well...that's it about my "fun and exciting" day....
yeah right......

friends

2006-09-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

i cried tonight...
no...
its not because of a girl...
its because of my friend...
he told me i should treasure my friends...
we had a disagreement...
the part that made me cried...
was when he told me that people said i befriended because of fame...
wanted to be cool or something....

WHAT THE HELL!!!!

ok2.....

another thing....

don't trust a friend too much......
i only trust a friend that i sincerely feel that its right....

ok that's all....
i gotta chill now....

trapped in boredom....

2006-09-08T00:45:00.000+08:00

What i did during the holidays?

hmm....let me think.....

i stare at this computer moniter.......
played the xbox my brother's friend left......
fiddled with my guitar.......
had alot of time to think.......a whole lot.....

aw man....
my brother's friend has a thing about war games.....
most of the games includes either killing.....
or military........
some few racing games and RPG games.......

now...
about the time i took thinking....
i've decided.....
i am going to be more laid back......
mellow maybe.......
i'll try not to think about teen angst and stuff.....

ouhk that about wraps this entry up.....
'til next time...

sigh

2006-09-06T13:01:00.000+08:00

haiz....
dead bored......
nothing much happen lately......
just that my brother's friend left his xbox at my house.......
and my cousins are adding me at friendster.......

practically my life is pretty boring.....

stayed up until more 5.30 last night......
did nothing much......
laid in bed.....thought about things....

well that's about it........

driven me crazy..

2006-09-04T20:49:00.000+08:00

haiz.....
ever want something really bad?
but not sure whether its best to have it?

i seriously have no idea what to do....
i want it so bad that i'm going nuts.....
but still....
i have second thoughts.......

if anybody knows what the hell i'm talking about.....
please help me.......

season of problems..

2006-09-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

from my point of view....
i think alot of people has been having problems lately.....
really weird......
i see my friends and family.....
they all have been having problems.....
i ask myself.....
why are we having problems now....?
we weren't having much poblems at the beginning of the year......
must be a problem phenomenon or something......

i myself have problems......
and believe me.....i barely have problems....
but my problems has been resolve.....
so no more worries....

1st Time....

2006-08-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

omg....
today was battle of the bands.....
and my 1st time performing....
i hope i didn't make too much of a fool of myself......
my legs were shaking.......
haiz......

my band was suppose to be the 1st band....
but we took too long to get up the platform....
that they skip to the next band......
it bought us time to decide on what song to play....
we decided with "Tell Me Everything" and "Forgotten Not Forgiven"....
i felt like i blew it.....argh!!!

when it was time my legs were shaking like crazy......
hope it wasn't obvious......
my frenz said that i kinda forced my voice......
and the vain on my neck grew big.......

aw man.....if the band is unhappy with performance...
i am more willing to blame myself.....
but some of my frenz said we were ok.....

lately...

2006-07-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

i've haven't been posting for a while now........
i almost like completely forgot that i even have a blog......
i took an online quiz saying that i like dating.......
but not being in a relationship.......
another said i don't want to compromise......
and the last one said that if i would have a girlfriend.....
she would be attractive........
so that has to mean that i'm very "choosey".......

i feel so "suckish" right now.....
i spent my $20 which i got for my birthday.......
on a night watching a movie......NACHO LIBRE!!!!
i kinda regret watching the movie......
i could have saved the money........
could even buy a rugby ball with it.......

Nice poem......

2006-07-01T02:23:00.000+08:00

Emo trend...wth

2006-07-01T02:14:00.000+08:00

i was searching for some cool pics....
when i stumbled on a pic....
showing how to dress emo......
they made emo into some sort of a trend.....
no wonder there have been alot of people acting to be emo......
i think these people use emo as a trend to get attention or be "cool" or something.....
wadeva the reason.......
some people are really emo bcoz of wad happened to them or wad they are going through.......
others with no problem want dressed emo-like to fit in.........
my advice to people.....plz be urself.....
don't follow others or you may be called a copycat.......

Nothing....

2006-07-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

nothing special happened today.....
when to skool...
study blah blah blah....
finish skool....
went to emma's crib......
reached home 7+......
well thats all......

tears

2006-06-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

ever wanted to cry but the tears just won't come out?
sometimes i wanna cry so bad.......
but still...no tears.....
maybe because i used to hold them back.....
i thought i could be stronger that way......
haiz......
they say tears could describe a million words....
true or false?
you tell me.....

compromise....

2006-06-28T16:55:00.000+08:00

three days since school started......
so far it sux.....
oh well.....school has always been....
erm.....mostly......
well....in the beginning of this term.....
i feel really different....
dunnoe why......really strange.....
i'm no longer irritating......
ali doesn't thinks so.....
chalet was cool...
hope going to have another......
but spooky place......
dun wanna spend the time alone there....
ever............ok that's it......